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Too Much
Sometimes it gets to be too much,
and I dont want to be alive the next day.
I get so sick of the shit in my life.
The
same shit that rips me apart inside,
It hurts me so deep,
And frustrates me to no end.
Theres times I wish I never
felt it.
I hate how it feels,
And I try to escape it.
But I cant,
It holds me down in it's grasp
Of cold, hate,
and tears.
It's just too much to bare.
Nikki
5-18-2004
Misconceptions of Love
I gave them my heart,
and love thinking that they
wouldn't tear it apart
or i wouldn't be in misery.
But i couldn't see
that they were that way.
I was just to happy
to think on that day.
Look where my feelings
have gotten me.
I have no caring
to give anymore, its like i've gone crazy.
I cant trust any guys,
I dont want to get hurt again.
If I find a sweet guy, it'll be a surprise,
I always was thinking.
But then i found
him, and now im slowly trusting
guys again, starting from the ground
working up to full caring.
?-Nikii-?
2003
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The Girl Alone
Looking up at the dark skies of her life,
And walking past the lies,
She crawls just barely alive.
Tears of sorrow,
hate, and pain streaming
Down her face, blood running with them.
Her arms drenched in the blood
She drew from her
wrists in misery.
I can see her face now, it sends a shiver down my spine.
Her eyes, so solemn and hurt, they are mine.
Her
blood sloaked body is mine.
I can feel all of the pain and hurt
From all of the years of teasing and broken hearts.
From
all of the hate directed at her.
All the shit just built up,
Until she just blew, and ended her life.
That girl is
me, and I reach out a hand.
But she, we are dead.
Nikii Fiegel
5-13-2004
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Another
Another day gone by
Another tear to cry.
Another thought gone to waste
Another wall defaced.
Another wish that didn't come true,
Another day that i feel blue.
Everyday another thing happens,
that makes me even more heartbroken.
Another boy that I love.
Another day and i've had enough.
Another false hope,
Another day I must cope.
Another day I dodge him,
Another day it feels like ripping a limb.
Abother day I wish we could be
Another day what will it bring, we'll see.
12-Nikii-02
2004
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