Through it all.

I can’t believe I liked you.

Looking at you, feeling all the hurt, lies, and pain again.

You’ve made me so restless, depressed, and so many tears have fell.

After it all came clear to me,

I still cared for you.

Despite what you did to me, you’re still my only one.

Through all the sleepless nights, smileless days,

Fake laughter, and hidden tears,

I’ll still love you through it all.

The only thing faker than the smiles and happyness is my hate for you.

12-Nikii-26

2005

About To Fall

Scratched upBranches swaying for something to grab.

Rivers flowing from two pools,

Angry and distressed sounds emanating from the cave.

This world is one unknown, many things to explore.

Dreams of emotions, feeling, and thoughts not so dreamlike in the end.

Multicolored spiderwebs expressing who she is.

Stillness of the whole world, theres nothing to express.

Bewildered and distressed, shes about to fall apart.

12-Nikii-26

2004

My Place

Walls colored like an acid trip,

Furniture that’s just as bright.

Theres a smile on these lips,

Everything feels so right.

We are all laughing in here,

Nothing to bring us down.

These eyes never dropped a tear,

And no one knows how to frown.

He holds my hands,

And gives me a kiss as sweet as honey on my lips.

No one cares whos your fav. Bands,

And evryone is just as funny.

We all get along,

Everyone acts so calmly,

We are all strong.

With this, I don’t need reality,

I’m perfect in this place.

I don’t need to come back where there are no friendly faces.

I don’t need to come back.

12-Nikii-26

2005

Given Up

Im giving up,

Letting it take me over,

I don’t care anymore.

Let the chemicals decide my fate,

I’ve given it up. I was struggling so hard,

It was fighting a lost cause,

So I’ve given up.

Here I go again, I hate how I’ve become.

What I will become.

Cant live with the hate, the guilt, the lies.

So I’ve given up.

12-Nikii-26

2005